Sheer Willpower

It is still implausible to me that less than a week ago we were wrapping up a 24-day vacation of vacations. After Kristi’s October surgery we worried that we might not even make the trip. But we did and it was incredible — yes, we took it slower than in the past, but we had no problems.  

In hindsight it must have been Kristi’s sheer willpower that kept her going despite the disease beginning to overwhelm her body. It was only after the release of being home — just 18 hours after we got home — that she allowed herself to feel the burden. 

I’m not known for making the most responsible financial decisions. For this trip I had the opportunity to upgrade our flight to Paris to first-class, something we’d never done — I surprised Kristi with the news the day before we left. While I felt guilty about spending the extra money, again, in hindsight, I’m so glad Kristi was able to fly to Europe in such comfort. 

Kristi has rested comfortably all day today. She is mostly unresponsive. She had a few more visitors and our family and closest friends spent the whole day in jubilant fellowship. 

The hospice nurse visited while our kids and their closest friends were here. The nurse was able to give the whole group some insight into what we can expect moving forward, and answer questions. It was a frank discussion. Hard, but knowledge helps aliviate worry and fear. It was good.